My day hasn’t been the best of days. This morning wasn’t so pleasant at all. At one point inside the car I had to start breathing heavily because I was having a hard time to breathe normally. My head started to ache badly and I just wanted to breakdown…
I felt that a lot of things were just overwhelming me all at the same time and everything’s just weighing me down. I know you might go on saying that some people have it worse, that I have to suck it up and just move on. Yeah, I know that…but am I not allowed to cry every so often? Am I not allowed to feel pain? There are the times when I ask myself why when bad things happen to me, they happen all at the same time. The moment I settled in Matteo I just wanted to toss everything and wail and just fall on the floor and just let myself feel what I was feeling: tons of misery with sprinkles of intentions of running away from everything… but I didn’t.
Went to my LS125 class and arrived a bit early. I was just looking out the windows and my German classmate pinched me and asked me how I was and it would’ve been easy to lie and say that I’m okay, that I’m just sleepy…but no, I couldn’t. I had watery eyes and I just had to tell her I wasn’t feeling at my best. During class I started to make myself feel better by just covering up what I was feeling by thinking of happy thoughts like Blue Christmas, France, the sensation of sipping a Peppermint Mocha while people watching. And at one point when Gianna was holding my Moleskine, my German classmate, Mirjam, got it and placed a sticker on my planner. She didn’t stick it, really, she just placed it on top. And I swear, it made me feel a lot better. A LOT better.
Unexpected, totally unexpected that the one who made my day better is someone I just met a few weeks ago. So, thank you Mirjam! I really do hope you continue to enjoy your stay here in the Philippines. 🙂